In my Waiting, God is not late

andrew-neel-199543-unsplashI’ve been listening to a new song on repeat today. There’s a set of lines in the song that I just can’t get out of my head…

“I count on one thing, the same God that never fails will not fail me now. In the waiting, the same God who’s never late is working all things out.”

These words struck me today.

Perhaps because I feel like I’ve been stuck in a season of waiting and wandering for some time now. I think it’s easy to get lost in a season, to wonder if you’ll ever emerge out of the deep waters. And while you’re lost in the season, you lose sight of what really matters. You get yourself lodged in the muck and every step forward feels like weights are pulling at your feet.

I’m one of those rare kids that crazy loves my parents. I’m also one of those few people that have had a chance to work with my Dad and actually really have enjoyed it.

A few weeks ago I learned that my Dad would no longer be continuing with his current work situation. I know it’s for the best. But I ugly cried.

No, you don’t even understand.

Like I blew out my sinuses from crying so badly.
Like I made myself cry so badly that the next day was shot.

I’m admitting this to you because for those of you that have ever ugly cried, you feel relieved when you find out there are others. Me too people!

So ya, total break down because of fear.

Fear of being alone.
Fear of the loss.
Fear of the change.
Fear of the unknown future.
Fear of being alone.
Fear of still wandering lost in my season.
Oh and did I mention fear of being alone?

So in my wandering, I seek to fill the space with empty things, trying to run from any chance of having another ugly cry breakdown.

So today I had a meeting a few hours away from my house, which I knew meant a drive, which I also knew meant me and God alone in the car for a few hours. I loaded some new music onto my iPhone, pressed play and drove.

And then these words…

“I count on one thing, the same God that never fails will not fail me now. In the waiting, the same God who’s never late is working all things out.”

God is never late.

But how can this be? Doesn’t he see me stuck in the muck, wandering lost in my season?

In my waiting, the same God who has been with me is still with me. And in my waiting, which feels like F-O-R-E-V-E-R, God is still working all things out.

He’s not late, which means I’m not lost.

This truth may not change the fact that I’m still waiting and wandering and asking when? But this truth gives me the opportunity to breathe in God’s faithfulness in my waiting because this God is never late and he’s still working things out for me.

Maybe you need to breathe this truth in as much as I do right now.

“I count on one thing, the same God that never fails will not fail me now. In the waiting, the same God who’s never late is working all things out.”

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